Embracing the fall

There are things that happen in life and sometimes they happen so fast that it knocks the wind out of you. Its like your legs were kicked from beneath you and you’re about to face plant. We’ve all had moments like this, right? Sometimes it leads you down a rocky road but sometimes, you find beauty.

At the end of 2012 I was working at a bank, and I loved what I did (for the most part lol). I had my own place, I was doing well for myself, I was having fun but I was dating all the wrong people…. A very dear friend of mine mentioned that she wanted to introduce me to someone. Umm, eye roll. It wasn’t just anyone, he was in the military, a good person, determined, handsome; all those qualities you pray for in a partner. At that time, I just came back from a horrid Vegas trip with my then boyfriend, I was in the midst of a break up and still obsessing over a toxic person from my past. Who in their right mind would want to introduce this train wreck to another person?! Haha!

Over lunch with a girlfriend she told me “you have to love yourself first and then learn to love what is GOOD for you.” I needed that. I needed to be reminded that I was worthy of so much more, I didn’t need to fix someone and fight for them to love me. I needed to love ME.

“To love at all is to be vulnerable.” – C.S. Lewis

A few months later I was sitting in front of my laptop screen, struggling to find the right words to message a complete stranger. Yep, you guessed it, that handsome military man my friend wanted me to meet. S C A R Y stuff, guys! My sweaty palms and trembling fingers whipped up something quick and I hit send. Talk about vulnerability!!! He ignored my message (he denies it to this day, but I know the truth LOL) and that didn’t sit well with me, so I reached out again with some major convincing and liquid courage. We hit it off and connected so deeply over simple messages and Skype calls.

Everything after that was a whirlwind. I moved, I found a new job, I found that undeniable-can’t live with out you-type of love. Just a few months after meeting we were living together and navigating new waters. It’s crazy to actually type our love story out. I don’t think either of us have ever thought about anything less!

I fell and I fell hard. ❤ It wasn’t always easy and we almost broke, a few times. With a little bit of grace, we are still here.

XO.

 

3 thoughts on “Embracing the fall

  1. I love this. I have found myself fallen in love recently and it’s amazing how it turns your whole world around. In the few months that we have known each other it absolutely blows my mind the connection I feel we have. It is nice to see someone else having had fallen hard and fast and still in love and making a life for yourselves 💗 I look forward to reading more of your future posts

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